Pieces Of Me...

I took a step back at took a look at myself. There are things I am happy with and there are certainly things I wished would be different. He has imposed quite sure a number of restrictions in my life and affected most of my decisions in the past and whatever that came out of it. Those are the parts I wished could be different. But that's over now right and I hope that my life to come would be different. In a way, it has.. but I think the main part of it, the core, is still affected but the years of those restraints and non-receiving of recognition, and the this cannot do and that cannot do without any reasoning. So much so that, I know many people believes that I am better than what I can do or what I am but there is still this part of me that is holding me down. Realising is probably a big part but after years it has been ingrained in me, it will probably also take years to get it out of me. I don't think anyone would understand or even get it and I think that there might be some people who think that it is not a big issue, it is just me. Yah, that's the me that is affecting everthing I do, or want to do. That's the me that needs you to understand. That's the me that still sucks.