Lost

I was waiting for the rest to come at 8.30pm last Friday, outside Sultan Mosque. Hungry, depressed, that time of the month. Anyway, bumped into a friend... or more like an acquaintance. Teared after that. Maybe it's just the PMS that is making me feel so depressed and teary. But there are certain things that I hink about even during my PMS-free moment and still feel sad.

Friend... Usually the steps are: acquaintances become friends and if situation allows, friends become good friends. If fights, disagreements, personality changes, other halfs and so on don't get in the way, they remain good friends. Else, just someone you once knew. But that seldom happens, cos friends somehow are more tolerant and accepting towards each other. Even if your friend had somehow "left" you for their other half, when things happen and they come back, you would still embrace them. At least I would.

But what if you do not know what happen, and a close friend just become a mere acquaintance.
What should you do? Just let go? What if you tried to find out, tried to pretend that nothing's happen but she just doesn't reciprocate that same feeling? What do you do? You tried and think of every single possible reason why the thing happen, but there is somehow no answer and the only person who can answer is the friend herself, but she refuses to even come close. What can you do?

Once close, now we are like strangers.
The awkwardness that engulfs us when we bumped into each other -
Do you feel it too?
I wanted to say more, but you just wanted to go.
The rest may say that it's not us, it's just you.
But I can't help feeling that I did something.
Did I?
I can't help feeling that I could do something.
Could I?
Only you can answer.
For now, I only can pray for your well-being and happiness.