This set me thinking

Just got back from my aunt's hse. My cuzin getting engaged tmrw so was helpg out a bit here and there, and believe me I still wondering how the hse is gonna get cleaned up for tomorrow, still quite a lot of things to be cleaned up. Anyway there was a bit of heat, due to a difference in views between my cuzin and her mum, and that set me thinking and wondering about a few things.

• how difficult it is to have a small thing when you have many relatives who really wanna be there (esp if you are the first few to get hitched, how the actual thing is going to be (it's juz an engagement now)
  


• how these things could cause some disagreements (when the kids dun understand their parents actions and when certain things are not seen eye to eye, sons/daughters wanting to have things their way since it is their wedding but parents knowing more and thinking about everything else like how they have always been, you know like how sometimes you go on outings wif your mums and they bring like alot of things and you go "mak, why you have to bring all those things?" but in the end the things proved to come in handy)
  


• how is it going to be like when it is my turn, not that I wanna get married now, just wondering how. But no lah, not ready yet... still finding answers about myself, still emotionally unstable.
  But I hope that nenek would still be around when I get married (insyallah) cos I want her to be there when I move through another phase in my life like how she has been as I moved from the different phases of my life.
  


• how expensive getting married can be (and it is supposed to be a beautiful thing). Sometimes some ppl spend so much and put so much effort in making a wedding so grand and so nice but the effort they put in making the marriage (which is actually the main thing) work is uncomparable.
  So which is supposed to be the big thing in your life, the wedding or the marriage? Yah, true, getting married is definitely a once in a lifetime thing, for majority out there, but why spend such a hefty sum only to suffer afterward and then some even might bring in the topic about how much was spent on the wedding during arguments.
  


• how glad and happy I am for my frens who are happily married, Az in London, Nuke and Mark who will be having their baby in July, etc...

After thought of writing this blog - usually marriage is Jiej's topic ;p
Anyway gotta go sleep. One thing that I know I can't for is my Kuantan trip!