Financially... unbalanced

Met my IA last nite after tuition to pay my premium and of course at the same time, he would update me on new products. At times, talk about stuff, well, my IA is a chatty person, likes to tell stories... sometimes he forgets what he has told me.

Anyway, last nite he was asking about how I have been. Updated him on my 4 tuitions on top of my job (which somehow has seen an increase in workload compared to last time) and that is why it is difficult to slot him in to pay my premium and I had to meet him quite late. He asked me why am I working so hard... That makes me wonder... yah why? He was not the first person to ask me, Aisha also asked.

*Deep in thoughts*
It is not really so much about the money. Ok, at first I was thinking about quitting my current job and with my first two tuitions (Yani and Bangkit), I could afford to take my time to find a new one. But later on, I start taking up more... one because she has been asking me since last time and then later on my own aunty asked me... I feel bad saying no, cause I really wanna help. Don't get me wrong, I dun just take it up cos I feel bad saying "No". I mean if I dun really like it at all, I wouldn't even want to teach in the first place.

Teaching tuition makes me feel satisfied. You know how I use to complain that this job is not giving me job satisfaction, and this satisfaction I get in tutoring. Although tired sometimes at the end of the day after work, I feel good after tuition especially if I helped these kids understand certain concepts, certain problems and share with them my own experience...

GG asked me why I dun wanna just go into teaching like all my other friends. (Come to think of it, all of them are in teaching... most) It's not that I dun want to but I guess I am not ready... and I guess I see teaching as a huge commitment. Once a teacher, always a teacher. Noticed how everyone will call a Cikgu, Cikgu although he is not everyone's Cikgu... Nak kena jaga diri sendiri baru boleh jaga orang betul2.. Teaching is not just about teaching per se, it's about motivating, cultivating, responsibility, teaching the right values and so on... For now, I will just stick to my tuitions.

Ok, enuf about why I am working so hard.. The next point is - Where have all the money gone to?? Arrghh, that is the thing. My IA always make me see that I am not saving enuf, or at all, and that I should start (that is one good thing about having someone who bothers about your finance) So now, I am really going to put a check on what I spend on... *Groan* Anyway, got to start saving, I am planning to study part-time, and open a small business too (insyallah)...