Time to reflect...

Not able to get to sleep yet, though I know I am rather tired... I guez it's been a long tym that I have lepaked online at this tym of the nite and chatted wif my frens, well, for tonite it was juz Aisha, and my old JC mate, Tzeyi... I remembered when there was a whole bunch of us online on MSN (named Muslim Society Network since we were all in MS) and playg monopoly when our dear fren fell aslp while waitg for Aisha to get connected. Haah... Almost every nite, w/o fail, we will all log in online, for different reasons but we were still all there. Yah, the nites when I stayed up to do my Java, HTML and what-nots. Really missed those moments.

Plus, when I was updating my frens abt the Perak trip and how fun it was, I was about to add, holidays are always fun, when I stopped myself cos I am reminded of my KL trip with my girl frens, good ol' frens. Now, semua ntah kemana...

Sad how people just move on wif their lives and at the same time move away from urs. So much for keeping in touch or offering a simple 'hi' when u see each other online, so much for 'I will be around when u need me', so much for all those words.. I remembered, all I wanted at that time was to forget my troubles, all I wanted was to have fun wif my frens, and I thought they wanted to help me forget my troubles, they wanted to have fun and enjoy the holidays together and maybe strengthen our frenship in a way... sighh. Sad how one trip can change the course of things. It might seem ok on the surface whenever we meet but I think underneath the surface, certain dynamics have changed.

And I wonder, how come the presence of guys can change frenships. What.. are we not able to meet up and have girl moments... Been a long tym since I had that wif my galfrenz, those nights we hang-out at the merlion, we met for coffee.. Do we only do that when someone breaks up or have relationship problems.. We dun even noe wat goes on in each others life anymore. Gosh.

Ok, getting too emo here, shud get to bed... Miss my hamster... For all my gal frens (if u ever come across this), I miss u gals too..