Job at the end of the day...

My work counterparts have a habit of giving me work nearing the end of the day, causing me to stay later... and during the first half of the day, I will be quite free... Well actually, not so today la, cos I have to tie up some stuff from yesterday.

I feel ultra-useless yesterday, was supposed to come out with some quotations for Singapore office but I couldn't cos I had no idea how to... And how am I supposed to come out with quotations when I have no idea what are the guidelines or things they consider in coming out with the figures, like that I can just shoot some figures right? So am I really useless, or it's ok that I dun really know? In fact, I even asked them for advise in coming out with the quotations since I have no experience at all, and what they told me wasn't any help. I really should get out of here. It's making me feel like I am uncapable of doing anything and it's not helping my morale.. I am starting to question my capabilities and my purpose. Gosh! But, if I resign, must go thru the process of finding another job, which isn't easy at all... Arrgghhhhh help!! Plus, no more tuition, so no side-income...

Anyway, Anisa had lunch with me yesterday, hmmm more like ultra late lunch, at about 3 plus. She stayed till end of the day. It was nice having someone else in the office with me and not be all alone.

I think I am undergoing a state of depression and confusion...