The art of giving...

Ok, was on the way to work when I suddenly thought of this issue... Giving. I like the act, yet at the same time, I don't like the emotional process that one goes thru during this act. Maybe it's just me la... Let me describe...

I like to give, be it treats (OK, when I have enough, I would be one super tak lokek person, but now abit tight), help, time, things but I dun like going thru the process of giving, as in you know when you give, you open up an emotional channel (I duno if anyone gets this, but this is how I feel la). Which is why when I give something, I would gloss over it, get it over and done with. Macam - Nah ambik and dun say anything, just take (the second part is left unsaid). If possible, I would try to find means to give people thing without having to have contact with the person, like maybe put it somewhere and write a note or something. Jiji would know this. Not that I am not sincere, just that I dun wanna get into that feeling2 thingy. I am just not a person to open up and bare my emotions no matter what kind. Very uncomfortable for me. Many of those who know me said that I am heartless, or cold, but I think I am just not understood.